A friend and I were chatting today about our most recent visits to each of our Naturopathic doctors, and halfway through our conversation I thought to myself, “these are really only problems for people who suffer from chronic illnesses that affect them every hour of every day” so I sent her a response to a comment with #ChronicIllnessProblems lol. She sent me pictures of all of the supplements she is now taking, as well as the process she has to go through in order to manage her PCOS, and I thought to myself, we really get each other, who else would be taking THIS many supplements and attend THIS many doctors appointments? Kinda made me laugh, because it’s kinda sad if you think about it.
I wake up in the morning, take 4 different supplements, ensure I’m eating the right diet that doesn’t include a single thing on my list of foods my body is sensitive to, or that will inflame my body / pain (the last couple days I have fallen off the bandwagon and I feel like total SHIT!). Then, I ensure my timers are set throughout the day because come 3PM I take 2 more different supplements / herbs, and then at 5, 7, and 9 I take others. Finally, when it’s time for bed, I take my prescription medication 30-60 minutes before bed to ensure it has time to get through my system and relax me enough to be able to fall sleep. Taking THAT many supplements throughout the day and night is incredibly frustrating and stressful, and at times I fall off that bandwagon and stop taking them just to feel like a normal person again, but then I end up feeling like complete crap because those supplements were actually helping. It’s quite the catch 22.
It doesn’t even stop there! After speaking with my naturopath recently, I will have to add in a handful more supplements because my body is SO deficient in basically every single vitamin and mineral – fun times!! When you’re this sick, you really come to think that all of this is normal, but in actuality, it’s really not! I’m working on the 14 case studies for my nutritionist diploma, and reading over my older brother’s forms, it’s clear that it is NOT normal to have SO many organs not functioning, to have a HUGE case of candida overgrowth, to have MAJOR heavy metal toxins in your body, and to be wildly deficient in vitamins and minerals.
What keeps me going is the fact that I have now had three teachers (who are naturopaths and amazing at that) tell me that they have basically healed their clients with fibromyalgia and chronic fatigue. It’s not easy – far from it! Takes years of hard work, but it can be done. That is what is keeping me holding on right now, and the fact that as I learn new ways of healing my body, I can then use that information to help others like myself.
I spent about 6 hours today working on homework sitting at my computer / my desk, and my best is in COMPLETE agony now from the sitting / hunching – that will be my next plan of attack – how on earth can I help my chronic, severe back pain without the use of pharmaceuticals (from my past), injections of lidocaine, or epidurals.
It’s funny – the minute one part of me feels better, for instance, I don’t have as much fatigue one day, something else, like my chronic pain is now more amplified. I just want to feel healthy! I don’t even remember what that feels like because I have been sick since I was 10 years old. Someone, please, enlighten me on how that feels!!! Right now I really want to do my laundry, clean the house, tidy, and the list goes on, but my pain and my fatigue are telling me “DO NOT DO IT OR YOU WILL REGRET IT”.
Guess I’m in for quite the bed bound night tonight.
Hope others are feeling better!
xoxo Lex aka “sick and tired of being sick and tired”